selective memory

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they say trauma causes memory loss
a way to cope with the pain
the vision is fragmented
yet the feeling remains
but you do not remember why
so you wear your heart on your sleeve
covering the scars carved by a past clouded with rain

 but the truth lies in her eyes 
yet you just choose not see 
you feel guilty that you love him 
when hate should precede 
she’s an extension of you 
but so is he 
and when he hurts her he hurts you 
and he hurts himself too

 so the memory fades
 a way to cope with the shame
 your vision is fragmented
but her feelings remain
and deep down yours do too 
still you wear your heart on your sleeve 
covering scars carved by a past filled with pain

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