five hate languages

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from holding hands to throwing bangs
the abuse of physical touch
you know that i yearn for your love
so why must things be so tough

why do you use my love against me
buy me gifts and then condemn me
for wanting more
because i am sure
that this is not the right reason for spending

and an apology wont suffice
if you cannot put aside your pride
and reveal all the lies you have told
through words that affirm nothing

you need to give me something
a reason to hold on
the clock keeps ticking
yet time is not fixing
the damage that has been done

and you understand my language
yet it gets lost in translation
you provide me with a service
that reveals what is beneath your surface

because you do not know how to love
you just know how to hate
you know how to manipulate 
the ways that i feel loved



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